modemgirl

simon has decided to go on an adventure tonight, and i am a bit upset.  i’m really hoping he is in one of my neighbours apartments (he loves to sneak in when he thinks no one is looking) because he is not an outdoor cat and hasn’t been outside since we moved to mount pleasant. otherwise he’s wandering around the dark, rainy night going MUM. MUM. MUM. I AM OUTSIDE. IT IS DARK. WHERE IS MY TUNNEL? MUM!!

i wandered around outside for an hour or so calling him, but gave up and decided to come to the coffee shop to try and get some work done.

fast forward to sitting in the window facing main street, drinking coffee and typing away on my macbook. totally not productive. worrying about my little boy. then a couple hip looking dudes walked by and gave me great smiles, which i quickly returned before going back to watching enthralling frame relay videos (fyi that video it will change your life, srsly.)

20 minutes later i notice the two dudes have returned. one walks up to the window with a notepad and presses it against the glass, with the words ‘you look wonderful when you smile’ written on it in big letters. HUGE GRIN. then they both smile and wander off into the night.

i’m trying to remember a theory i read once, something about not taking the gifts we have forgranted. there are certain things we could never imagine happening, the worst possible things that we assume will never happen to us, and these things will someday be the greatest challenges we will face. for example, i can’t imagine being blind, so every day i try to be conscious and grateful for the gift of working eyes. the same goes for being able bodied, free from disease, relatively sane, from a family who loves me, living in a country where i am free to do/be/say whatever i want (more or less) without persecution. or even things such as every day when i get home and my house is not a cloud of ash and smoke, i am thankful, because i know that could change in a second.

i just think it’s important to keep these types of things in mind and to be thankful for them, because our lives can change exponentially in the blink of an eye. one truck driver having a bad day could miss one stop sign and kill you, your best friend, your nemesis. a mugger could stab you in the eye, someone could fall asleep with a lit cigarette, or leave a ball of fat full of fish hooks out for your dog to find. or you could meet the love of your life, only to have him die of brain cancer two months later. or someone could carelessly let your cat-son out one rainy night… you just never know.

a life without simon is something i just can’t imagine, but reality is fleeting and we must be ready to face whatever randomness the chaos deals us. fingers crossed he’ll be waiting on the couch on the porch when i get home, and tonight is merely a reminder for me to not take his little face for granted. perhaps it’s also a reminder for him – to appreciate his cushy indoor life!

a quick meta post to commemorate version 3.0 of modemgirl.ca. looks like i’ve finally joined “web2.0″ and accepted that widgets are here and real and look way better than my old-school- geocities-style attempts. tonight’s goal was integration of all the other social media sites where i actually contribute regular content! except, of course, for good old livejournal, which will remain hidden away in it’s dark and dusty corners friends only corners. wouldn’t want the internet at large to find out how terrible my writing can get, particularly when infused by sleep deprivation, estrogen, my tendency to become excited over completely irrelevant things or my lack of interest in impressing everyone with proper grammar or sentence structure.

anyhoo, what do ya think? more content coming soon i promise!